Unabsorbed Thoughts

Again, I’ve managed to find myself trying to carry a conversation with a wall
It’s a different room, with different lights, standing in a completely different spot
It’s been so long that this numbness was something that I had finally forgot
Just circling the sentences with newer syllables— the repetition of unabsorbed thoughts

You knew the chorus but it seems you’ve forgotten the words to the rest of the song
I held my breath, standing frozen in place for just a second too long
My heart pounding against my ribs— my breathing creating a dramatic rise and fall
Maybe it’s a misunderstanding or maybe I’m just looking at it wrong

I wasn’t expecting my own voice to echo louder than yours
Or to realize I’ve been knocking on unopened doors
It’s not goodbye—it’s a break from the constant delay
I’m just tired of chasing answers you won’t give anyway

So I’ll take some space, not out of anger, just to feel more like myself
To sit with all the questions still gathering dust on the shelf
I’m not expecting answers, or holding you to explain
Just learning how to loosen my grip on quiet, while something still remains